A Letter to my 16 year old self

We have an assignment in our PI 100: RizAL class in which we should make a letter that will be addressed to our 16 year old self. I had the comfort of making this letter in bed while lying around thinking of what the letter should be. Thanks to my EE PC 900HA netbook, I managed to make this letter successfully. So guys here is the result of the collaboration of my thoughts and EEE PC900HA netbook. Hope you guys would enjoy reading it.:))

“A Letter to my 16 year old self”

August 25, 2009

To the 16 year old me:

I have come to realize that life in college is not as easy as what you may think, in the state that you are in now. You might be thinking of such happy thoughts as to when graduation would come and what or how might your first day in college be. However, I am not in the position, to tell you to stop dreaming, and to tone down your excitement. Yes, indeed, I am your future, but I still have a future ahead of me and so, I cannot generalize of how college might affect you on the long run.

In the position of where I am in right now, I cannot help myself from getting jealous of how you are. You are still 16 and this October I will be 20. I am not saying this because I feel I am getting old nor is it because of physical appearance. But I’d be a fool if I would say I am not.

I have so much to tell you, but I feel that I cannot tell all in this letter. It is not because I am too lazy to write it, it’s just because it would be unfair if I would tell you all of the things that will happen in your life. Where is the fun and excitement in that? Nevertheless, there are important things that I want to share with you but I will not tell you everything about them. In love, you will be experiencing so many wonderful and hurtful things. In academics, it will be a tough road for you but never give up. You will lose some friends on the way, but you will gain new ones. Never stop believing in God, and always ask help from him and tell him everything that you want before you go to sleep. That is something I know you cannot get it out from your system.

As I am writing or typing rather this letter to you, I am hiding and covering myself in a blanket. I feel I want to be like a turtle. I just got home from a hard day at school, and I mean a very hard, depressing, stressful day in school. I feel very depressed today because I got a low mark on an exam. You’ll get many of that in college *nodding* and it becomes a normal thing to you.

I really want to tell you to think twice and think hard of the course that you will be taking in college. Do you really want this life, my life that I am in now? I know that you just recently passed the DOST Scholarship Exam and congratulations on that but I hope you already have an idea on what you want to do in life. I know you’re still too young, but I feel that’s the one thing I should’ve done a few years ago. I should have taken things more seriously at that age. I so want to warn you not to make the mistakes that I did in the past, but that’s also part of life. You’ll learn from it, believe me you will.

I will end this letter, with a quote I learned from one of my classes in college. In reality, questions are the ones that really matter, answers do not. So do not worry if you have so many questions that are popping out of your head as you’re reading this letter. I may not give you direct answers, but at least you are aware that so far, everything is good and you will still see yourself when you’re 19 making also this letter to your 16 year old self.

PS: It’s funny because my plan was to tell you everything that you need to know in life when you get in college, yet I end without telling you anything.

Yours truly,

Ana Maria (19)