Today hell, tomorrow judgment day

I've been so busy with school work lately, that I don't have the time to update my blog. For this semester, I had to do an overnight at my groupmate's house(plenty of times), which was one thing I don't usually do. But for the sake of Software Engineering and Automata, I had to do it.

In terms of personal hygiene, I've been having problems with having so many pimples popping out of my face and I fear that they have become acne. I think this problem resulted to nights were I didn't get enough sleep and for straight nights were I had no sleep at all. But I'm still thinking, "It doesn't matter if I'd look ugly or I'll have millions of pimples, as long as I don't fail a subject this semester." The pressure is really hitting on me, and sometimes I feel I'm putting my health at risk. I'm really pushing to the limit here. As much as possible, I don't want to fail in any of the subjects this semester, not because of the 5.0 but because of my scholarship. If I fail this semester, my family can't support me financially, so how can I pursue my last semester in college? The reason I'm still surviving in college, is because I have a scholarship supporting me financially, and gives me the pressure not to fail in any subject.

Today, I've(we've) just taken the AIS Final Exams, and as usual, the exam was unpredictable. Nobody expected what would come out in the finals, was the last chapter and others concentrated on studying(memorizing) the previous chapters instead. I have so many things to do today, with so little time. I have just finished revising our test specification document and I still need to revise our software requirements specification document and finish the test results. arghh!!! I haven't prepared for my finals in SOftEng, and I don't know if I can manage to finish reviewing all of the chapters that were covered.

I almost forgot, tomorrow is also the Sipser Show where we had to practice for our dance fusion which will be presented and our music video(which gave me the heck). This is our culminating activity for our Automata class and Sir Paul Cabral was kind enough to give this time for us to relax and enjoy.

MY AUTOMATA GROUPMATES

My SoftEng Groupmates (top: Bryan
below: Jean)

I really hope I''ll do good on our finals tomorrow, since I really have a low mark on our previous exams and I BADLY need the extra credit.

I hope this week would end and these are the things I look forward in the coming weeks:

1. Our DanceFusion (choreographed by yours truly and tin)

2. Our Music Video (were we had to go to IT PARK at 3 am in the morning)

3. Successful deployment of the DCS Website (Hope our Document Tracker Module would function properly)

4. Party

5. Night life

6. Hopefully get to attend the Asus My EEE PC Fair (My EEEPC Life My Life Awarding Ceremony). -- I miss my eeepc blog. XD. Part of the top 20 bloggers! --

7. Vacation somewhere in Mindanao where my relatives live

8. Otaku fest (I'm planning to join and I will cosplay Kyoko of SKip Beat as Mio XD)

9. Finish this semester with no failures (Lord, please help me achieve this.)

Hell Month For me!!Arghh!!

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I've been so busy with school work not only for this month but also for the coming months. I feel like my whole body is going to burst because of all the things that needs to be done. Life of a 4th year Computer Science student in UP Cebu is not that easy. (Trust me, it really is). Everyone is busy with projects, reports, homework and preparing for exams since finals is getting nearer.

Everybody is living in a Soft Eng World.

Yes, it seems that for this whole month, everybody has been living in a software engineering world. For 7 days a week, all we do is code, make documents, and prepare for deadlines. (Somebody help us please!). I wish that everything would just stop and you can fast forward everything. Really!!!.

I really can't remember a day when I had a very good night sleep. It's because of this website that we need to finish, and a teacher that keeps reminding us of the INC that we might get in her class. And so everyone os going loco now.

Plus, I'm having trouble with my exams because I failed two already. Oh no, I might fail Soft Eng this semester. What will I do? I know I gave my best on those two exams, but clumsiness can't be helped when answering some of the items (Yes, I'm such a clutz!). I really hope I can still keep holding on amongst all of these problems that are rising.

Lord, if you're up there, please help me, rather help all of us. I hope we could manage to end this semester with no failures.

P.S: I badly need it because of my scholarship. I can't afford to go to school next sem, if I fail now. :(

A Letter to my 16 year old self

We have an assignment in our PI 100: RizAL class in which we should make a letter that will be addressed to our 16 year old self. I had the comfort of making this letter in bed while lying around thinking of what the letter should be. Thanks to my EE PC 900HA netbook, I managed to make this letter successfully. So guys here is the result of the collaboration of my thoughts and EEE PC900HA netbook. Hope you guys would enjoy reading it.:))

“A Letter to my 16 year old self”

August 25, 2009

To the 16 year old me:

I have come to realize that life in college is not as easy as what you may think, in the state that you are in now. You might be thinking of such happy thoughts as to when graduation would come and what or how might your first day in college be. However, I am not in the position, to tell you to stop dreaming, and to tone down your excitement. Yes, indeed, I am your future, but I still have a future ahead of me and so, I cannot generalize of how college might affect you on the long run.

In the position of where I am in right now, I cannot help myself from getting jealous of how you are. You are still 16 and this October I will be 20. I am not saying this because I feel I am getting old nor is it because of physical appearance. But I’d be a fool if I would say I am not.

I have so much to tell you, but I feel that I cannot tell all in this letter. It is not because I am too lazy to write it, it’s just because it would be unfair if I would tell you all of the things that will happen in your life. Where is the fun and excitement in that? Nevertheless, there are important things that I want to share with you but I will not tell you everything about them. In love, you will be experiencing so many wonderful and hurtful things. In academics, it will be a tough road for you but never give up. You will lose some friends on the way, but you will gain new ones. Never stop believing in God, and always ask help from him and tell him everything that you want before you go to sleep. That is something I know you cannot get it out from your system.

As I am writing or typing rather this letter to you, I am hiding and covering myself in a blanket. I feel I want to be like a turtle. I just got home from a hard day at school, and I mean a very hard, depressing, stressful day in school. I feel very depressed today because I got a low mark on an exam. You’ll get many of that in college *nodding* and it becomes a normal thing to you.

I really want to tell you to think twice and think hard of the course that you will be taking in college. Do you really want this life, my life that I am in now? I know that you just recently passed the DOST Scholarship Exam and congratulations on that but I hope you already have an idea on what you want to do in life. I know you’re still too young, but I feel that’s the one thing I should’ve done a few years ago. I should have taken things more seriously at that age. I so want to warn you not to make the mistakes that I did in the past, but that’s also part of life. You’ll learn from it, believe me you will.

I will end this letter, with a quote I learned from one of my classes in college. In reality, questions are the ones that really matter, answers do not. So do not worry if you have so many questions that are popping out of your head as you’re reading this letter. I may not give you direct answers, but at least you are aware that so far, everything is good and you will still see yourself when you’re 19 making also this letter to your 16 year old self.

PS: It’s funny because my plan was to tell you everything that you need to know in life when you get in college, yet I end without telling you anything.

Yours truly,

Ana Maria (19)

From being strangers, to being comrades, to being strangers again…

(April 5th, 2009 by resha-valentine -- this was posted as a friendster blog)

wa lang..just wanted to post a blog here in blogger.I missed doing this here. I’ve come to realize how life is simply amazing…simply amazing in a sense, that for everything to fall so perfectly in its right place, we lose the people we cherish. Pero ang pagkawa nila sako life was a good thing that happened in my life..Actually it was the best thing that happened in my life. Why? I was always stuck in a small world, but now I’m free, free to be anywhere I want to be. How I wish I was a silvertongue like in INKHEART, where I get to read a story and everything comes to life.. I would have conjured so many things just to have so many people around to talk with.hehehhe…

 

Pero I have the whole world as my playground now..I’m not afraid reaching out to other small groups because I’m not stuck with just one. ANd No, to tell you honestly I didn’t struggle nor suffered in the past few weeks, coz I realized that there’s nothing as in wa juy rasun nga makapasuffer nako..lol.(plastika uy bsag naa jud ang imu studies diay day?assignments, group projects, projects and exams.). Well except for those things pud uy and thank you Lord wa koy hagbung. I’m thankful coz I learned to be independent, and I stood with my own feet. I didn’t depend on others for courage which was what I used to do. but that’s totally out of my system now. yes, it might be sayang coz we’ve spent a long time together, but I think it’s part of life. And I’m not closing my doors to anyone of you. I’ll also open my windows for you..Kidding. What I mean is. I hope we could still get to say hi to each other when we meet. That’s all. and so these ends I mean this is a start of a new chapter in my life. Again No REGRETS, but just Keep Moving Forward!!!!No matter how life can be, I’ll try my best to stand up and stand firmly. No one can break me apart. So press on Ana!!!!(–from Fated to love you)..

"Life is just like a can of piknik. You'll never know what size you'll get inside."

-Airamana-